No wonder I am 40 pounds overweight. I have recently discovered that I really don’t enjoy working out. I mean, I thought I was just unmotivated. Lazy. Intimidated, maybe? No, I just really don’t like it. My least disliked activity is the treadmill, but even then, there is nothing fun about making your legs hurt while you watch ridiculous shows on the Women’s Network. It’s boring. I tried reading, but I can’t focus too well on the words unless I go quite slowly, which doesn’t really get the heart rate up to the target level. All those machines that work your muscles — I think they all look the same, are too hard to adjust, and who knows what weight or number of reps you should do.
So I got a trainer. Now he adjusts all the machines and tells me what to do every time I go to the gym. I have to go, because I am paying the guy. I admit, we do have a few laughs together, but it is still not fun! Worst of all, after almost three weeks, I have no change in my weight, shape, or size. I am feeling frustrated and pretty much still hating working out.
The other thing I am doing is watching my food intake. I haven’t changed my eating habits; I just record everything I ingest now. I am using the website eatracker.ca and it’s very informative. But according to eatracker.ca, I consume only a fraction of my allowable calories every day. So I’m not sure why the pounds aren’t melting off me. Would be great to head out in some pants that fit me besides the one pair of jeans and one pair of black pants I had to purchase because I needed some that don’t cut off my circulation below the waist.
At what point do you start losing weight, seeing results and feeling like you enjoy working out? And feeling that it is all worth it? Does such a point even exist? Who are these people I see at the gym who are so thin and toned? How did they get that way? I feel like I wrecked my body and now I am stuck with it. Good thing I have a contract with the trainer or I would be so outta there.
I absolutely hate being so overweight. I keep wondering how to turn this feeling into some sane-sounding plan for change.